unfriended

once upon a time i went through a break up. it sucked, quite a lot, as break ups often do. as time goes on i expected that it would kind of get better, that the rough edges would smooth just a little. that maybe we could hope to some day be friends again. but as time goes on i find that i've been cut out and erased from more and more of her life. blocked on fetlife. then photos of us together deleted from her facebook profile. then unfriended on facebook. then untagged in any photos of us together. how has it been 3 months and yet the distancing is getting worse, just as i'm getting closer and closer to moving back? if my anxiety about this wasn't already sky high, this put it there. i just feel so hurt - why was this necessary? how did i possibly inspire this much hatred?